First time apart

This is the first time my son is spending time away from me... 3 weeks. I'm overwhelmed, lost, and broken hearted. I'm not use to the awkward silence without the baby. He's not crawling up my leg when I do the dishes. I was able to use the restroom alone. My mornings are boring... Along with the rest of my day. My nights are lonely cus I nobody to cuddle. I miss my son so much. It's only the second day, will this get easier. I'm scared of losing my bond with him. What if he's not my baby anymore when he comes back? Its becoming depressing. I'm not hungry but I got light headed so I made myself eat. I'm tired, didn't sleep too good. Anyways... I can do this. What to do... What to do... Hop on my sewing machine? I need to leave my phone alone and let my sons father have his daddy time. Oh but boredom keeps sinking in! Ugh!!!!